Published on Sep 5, 2013
Video of gangstalking, with commentary about who is doing it and why.
Gangstalking video from Tolland, CT.
Today I had an appt. at DMV to get a new plate and renew my registration. The appt. was for 11 am and this place was crowded. A line wrapping around the building and I had to park a block away. On the way in I was blocked twice by a young Asian male walking in front of my car and a large city utility truck.
A sign outside said to go see the security guard at the door if you have an appt. As soon as I reached the front door the man pictured above tried to cut in front of me. At the same time the guard, who looked to be 100 years old, got distracted by his walky-talky, stepped back and let this man in and cut everyone. The man was a perp and made a fake apology when I called him out for cutting me off. “Oh I’m sorry, I was looking at my paper” with a phony smile. When I told him to be more careful or he’s going to hurt someone, he asked me if he hurt me, then called me a weirdo. This was a prepared “skit”.
Perps are told to act oblivious to their surroundings when they block you, but you know they are laser focused on your location. And when you do call them out it’s always “Oh, sorry, I was distracted by my cellphone, kid, dog, jerking off to kiddie porn, etc.”. And they never act genuinely sorry or guilty, or remorseful. Their whole objective is to walk right up to the borderline of illegal activity and sit there. They give not one fuck who they offend.
The perp man stood in a line to my left as a large Mexican family blocked me from the appt. desk. The place is crowded and noisy. I finally get help and the woman’s voice is so low it’s barely comprehensible. She gives me forms to fill out and as I go to sit down, I pass the same male perp who is now standing in a line to my right to block my path. They pull this shit all the time where they stalk you around an area. As I passed him he asked “Did I hurt ya?” and started laughing. I gave him a fake laugh and told him how funny he was. What an epic loser.
As I fill out the forms he then appears sitting in a row across from me and starts talking loud and fast to his neighbors. He is talking about nothing, complete bullshit, and he sounds like he is on speed or coke. It is meant to distract me from the forms. This has happened to me at DMV in the past where a group of Mexican high school boys sat near me and talked loudly while taking the CA driver’s test.
Perp douche finally leaves and I finish my forms and get back in the appt. line. I wait patiently as the woman waives half a dozen people through from the “handicapped” line ahead of me. She gives me a number and I take a seat again. Cough harassment, crowding, blocking harassment, noise harassment, etc. while I wait.
My number is called and I go up to another desk. We have to move around the corner to make a payment. When I meet here there a man walks up right away and tries to distract her by asking for help. He acts desperate but she ignores him :). He follows us back the the other desk and he starts bothering her neighbor and getting really loud. The “real” security guard had switched posts with the phony one by this time but he did nothing. The desperate perp finally gave up and got another number. I tell the lady I would need to take a sedative to do her job.
I am out in less than an hour and there is still a line around the building. This is my first time to this DMV location. I don’t know if it’s always like that here or if this is theater. Why would you stand in that line forever when it is so easy to make an appt.?
Published on Jul 14, 2013
Gang stalking is a form of community mobbing and organized stalking combined. Just like you have workplace mobbing, and online mobbing, which are both fully recognized as legitimate, this is the community form. it’s a psychological attack that can completely destroy a persons life, while leaving little or no evidence to incriminate the perpetrators.”
Gang Stalking is stalking by more than one person to a victim, usually involving community harassment, or the “mob”, using people from all backgrounds and vocations to harass, tracking 24/7, sometimes organizing lethal vehicle accidents, poisonings, electronic harassment, home invasions/property destruction, corrupt or ignorant doctor diagnosis given to stamp the victim as bogus mentally ill with delusions, paranoia, or schizophrenia, etc. Everything is done covertly, and with a sophisticated real time dispatching system to organize the criminals’ harassment and attacks, often in the hundreds to thousands of criminals participating as a coordinated mob at any given time while the criminals due their normal routines of work, shopping, commuting to and from work, leisure, etc., using the method of moving foot and vehicular surveillance techniques, and computers, cell phones, verbal and visual cues, and every other conceivable type of communication.
Often, the local network of this mob is connected to a national and international network – funding is done by illicit drug industry/crime syndicates, CRIMINALS working in:corporate environment, and government sponsored terrorism for military weapons research using non-consenting human beings. It’s similar to Cointelpro or red squads, and it’s being used on a lot of innocent people to ruin them and make them look crazy. Gang Stalking is all about government disinformation, and using civilian spies/snitches to help with stalking and monitoring innocent people.
Gang Stalking is a form of bullying and intimidation from multiple perpetrators.
Whereas ordinary bullying is usually one on one, and workplace mobbing is where multiple people in one workplace attack one (or a few) person(s), Gang Stalking involves multiple people attacking one person in any situation.
Groups of people, or, loosely organized people pick a target, and attempt to destroy the victims life in any way that they can.
They attempt to scare and terrorize their target, causing anxiety and other problems.
They will do whatever they can to get the target fired from their job.
People become a victim when they have attacked a member of a group (ie gang) as part of revenge, or, in the case of political groups, attack their political opponents such as authors, etc.
Street theater is any premeditated harassment that takes place in a public setting, ranging from the dumbfoundingly stupid and simple to the elaborate/sophisticated plan that definitely was not worth it.
– Leaving dead/dying animals in target’s path. Squirrels, rats, mice, birds, dogs. Leaving small feathers in targets path repeatedly.
– Saying first or last names of family members/ close friends aloud in public within earshot. Strangers saying target’s name in public.
– Crowding stores/shops after you arrive, causing delays in checkout lanes. Preoccupying employees with stupid questions/ requests. Paying for items with copious amounts of change.
– Having cats/ dogs/ children suddenly run into road as you drive by.
– Couples fighting in public w/ loud, abusive language. Younger males cursing, spitting, using vulgar language.
-People talking about severe abuse, suicides, drug abuse in front of target. People pretending to smoke hard drugs in front of target. People breaking down and crying/sobbing in front of target.
– Same time entry/exit by neighbors. Neighbors showing up at grocery store, pharmacy, cafes, gas station, drive thrus, church, etc.
– Insulting comments about body/hairstyle/ appearance/social skills/intelligence level, often said aloud in front of a group in public.
– Completely ignored by retail staff when you need help; then followed around by staff like a rash on your ass when you just want to shop in peace.
– Using artificial telepathy to block items target plans to buy at the store. You can go to the market at 2am and there be a perp blocking the item you want to buy.
– Using directed conversation to humiliate target in public.
– Staged roadwork, construction work, car accidents, traffic stops, landscaping, probationary community work everywhere you go. Roadwork will often include spraying something into the air as target passes such as water, clouds of dirt/dust, exhaust fumes. Landscapers will aim leaf blowers at/ near target.
– Staged outdoor large exercise groups passing you while driving, walking (high school “cross country”, “Mommy and Me” groups, Yoga classes, Hula Hoops, etc). Staged outdoor military style drills/group exercise. BJJ schools are heavily involved in my area.
– Aggressive/hyper exercise in front of target: running at high speed, paddle ball, frisbee, soccer, touch football, volleyball, “doing stairs”, outdoor aerobics, passing football/baseball back and forth. If there is a ball or frisbee involved, it will invariably be thrown in target’s path.
– Lone people playing instruments outdoors: bagpipes, trumpets, tubas, drums, guitar.
– Whatever building the target is in, if there is a security guard employed there they will make an appearance, frequently jangling keys the whole time like they are a prison guard.
– Store employees coming our and “busying” themselves in front of target to crowd them while target is shopping, frequently pushing loud carts/heavy objects around.
– Weird/ distracting bikes/vehicles w/ odd shapes/colors/sizes.
– Blocking harassment at every turn, by any means possible. Physically blocking target’s path everywhere they go. This is a major part of synchronized harassment.
– Air harassment, loud/low multiple flyovers, everything from model planes to commercial flights. They also had a flock a pelicans showing up every time I went near the water, occasionally landing near me. I’m still not sure if they were real birds or drones, but the perps seemed very interested in them.
– Wearing Easter bunny costumes in public the middle of the summer. Seeing homeless/gangster type characters in unlikely areas/neighborhoods.
– Refusing to shake target’s hand in church to make a sign of “peace”(perp will then turn around and shake another person’s hand).
-Stalkers playing multiple roles: Woman from church appears at gym as an exercise instructor, passerby at beach. Massage therapist appears as a priest after a Latin Mass. Inpatient psych nurse shows up in office posing as a coworker. Homeless male appearing later as a fellow psych inpatient.
– Stalking by coworkers and gym employees out in various public locations.
– Public nudity, sexuality, PDA. Scantily clad women (bikinis inside Subway restaurant), nudity/clothes falling off at beach, women in suggestive poses, men pretending to urinate on side of street.
– Acting distracted/spaced out while talking to target. Screwing up food orders w/ dining out/take out. Excessive talking/getting off topic, not allowing target to speak/ask questions.
– Fires drills, power outages, computer outages, water outages.
– “Apocalyptic” props. In the summer of 2012 the perps set up a large fishing boat a few miles off the coast. It was set up to look like it was capsizing. Of course it was never on the news. Highway convoys of stopped vehicles that go on for miles, usually going opposite direction of target to overwhelm them.
– Chemical harassment: perfume, pesticides, saw dust, cars w/ excessive exhaust, second hand smoke, marijuana fumes, urine odor, fabric softener, Halls menthol cough drops, mint gum, odor of airplane restroom. Any specific odors that they know target doesn’t like or that will humiliate/ mirror them.
– Any excuse to congregate in a group near or around target but at the same time intentionally excluding target from the group activity/conversation.
– Loud screaming kids in any venue possible, including church. Walking multiple dogs at the same time. Kids are encouraged to act hyperactive and loud and engage in all the same harassment activities as the adult perps.
– Fake store employees that can be deployed within minutes by management. Specifically sent to annoy/harass target and act incompetent. This has a “reality show” aspect and you will frequently see the regular staff “handling” them and also getting annoyed with how stupid/inept they are. This may also be a service to store owners and regular staff who do not want to be held personally accountable for being Nazi traitors. Employees will be switched out at all the stores the target regularly shops at.
– The “Now you see me now you don’t act”, the same perp will randomly appear/ vanish in target’s sight while target is on an outing. Perp will let target pass them on a trail, then run by target, then fall behind again, etc. Perp will hide behind trees/buildings, then suddenly appear as target passes, etc. Same perp may appear to pass target multiple times/locations in a short period of time. This is often accomplished using doubles or look-alikes of the perp. The vanishing/appearing tactic is also done with inanimate objects as big as cars, not sure how they pull that off.
– Groups of “extras” deployed in the dozens to thousands to create “theater” at any given time. Setting include shopping malls, restaurants, churches, freeways, DMV, courthouses, hotels, sports stadiums, beaches, parks, concert venues, neighborhoods. Anywhere a flash mob can appear, the perps can appear. And since perps use fraudulent means to get access to secure areas, they have even more reach than regular flash mobs.
This definitely does not cover all street theater, I can give loads more examples but just wanted to get some info out there on this topic. Keep in mind street theater is also largely made up of other types of harassment previously covered in this blog like mimicking/mirroring, color harassment, gesture harassment, noise harassment, forced coughing, directed conversation, first responder harassment, vehicular harassment, stalking harassment. Workplace mobbing also involves a lot of theater, which I will cover in a future blog post.
Some of this may seem comical and people may wonder “what’s the harm”? The harm is when it’s done with frequency and duration to the target and their circle of support, it can cause a severe amount of stress and even death when combined with other gang stalking tactics. There are feelings of utter futility in not even being able to articulate this type of harassment in a coherent way. This is compounded by the fact that no one in law enforcement or the legal system will help and psychiatry will just label the target as delusional if they talk about it.
Experiencing the types of harassment mentioned above on a daily basis for years can and will lead to PTSD, nervous breakdowns, complete loss of trust in people, severe anxiety, depression, and suicidal/homicidal thoughts. Once the perps have accomplished complete dehumanization and destruction of the target, the target is blamed for all “of their own problems” and the perps walk away scot free.
I do not have a violent bone in my body. But if I ever did pull an Aaron Alexis or Miriam Carey, I have a pretty good idea of what people will say about me after I am arrested or killed. This includes family, friends, coworkers, neighbors, law enforcement, attorneys, and therapists.
“She was a loner. I rarely saw anyone visiting. She worked from home and rarely left her home.”
“She had a breakdown just over a year ago, we called the Sheriff’s dept. multiple times. Her family was very concerned about her.”
“She was very quiet and kept to herself. After her “breakdown” she became less friendly and irritable and rarely spoke to anyone. She started taking pictures and videos of us which upset some neighbors.”
“She became a habitual complainer, filing complaints with the HOA, Sheriff dept., and the city staff regarding increased traffic and loud vehicles on our street/property and noise/harassment/stalking by neighbors.”
“She vandalized a neighbor’s door just because his dog barked too loudly at her.”
Interpretation: “We’re so innocent and sweet. It’s all her own fault. We tried our best to help her. We never did anything to antagonize or provoke her. She was mentally ill and in denial of her illness.”
“She had a severe breakdown at work last summer. She did not recognize some of us. We called the police. She was acting paranoid and delusional. She did not think they were real cops and tried to injure herself when they detained her.”
“She filed grievances about increased noise inside the call center, disparate treatment by supervisors and coworkers, being singled out for harassment and that we filed a false police report on her.”
“I used to be friendly with her, we hung out socially outside of work. Since her breakdown at work she would no longer speak to me.”
Interpretation: “We’re so sweet and innocent. She’s one of our best employees. We did what we could to help, we didn’t do anything wrong, it was the police dept.’s fault she had a panic reaction. We didn’t to anything to antagonize or provoke her.”
“She had a breakdown. She said cars with blacked out windows were following her around the city. That was she was being harassed and singled out at work and being followed around the community by groups of people on foot.”
“When we went to her home to help her she wouldn’t let us inside. She did not believe we were really her family. She said there was excessive/loud traffic on her street. We encouraged her inpatient psychiatrist to put her on Risperdal, extend her involuntary hold, and put her under a conservatorship for her “mental illness”. But our sister refused everything.”
“Since last summer she will not make any verbal,written, or face to face contact with us.”
Interpretation: “We’re so sweet and innocent. We tried to help. She was mentally ill and in denial of her diagnosis. This is all her own fault. We didn’t do anything to antagonize or provoke her.”
Sheriff Dept.- “We made multiple visits to her home last summer and also a safety check on Christmas day. She had multiple complaints about loud vehicles and harassment from neighbors. We told her we don’t have gang stalking in our city.”
Police Dept.- “She did not think we were real police officers when we came to her work. Her coworkers were concerned about her. We were just doing our job when we detained her and cuffed her with excessive force at her desk that day (without actually witnessing her doing anything wrong). We had a right to do what we did.”
Interpretation: “We’re innocent. It was her own fault she didn’t cooperate with us. She did this because she is mentally ill.”
“She was held involuntarily for 8 days last summer for having a breakdown at home that carried over into work.”
“She stated she was being gang stalked. We told her there is no evidence this problem really exists and it would not be feasible for this to happen anyway.”
“We researched the topic of gang stalking as she requested but all we could find is anecdotal information in blogs and on the internet.”
Interpretation: “We tried to help her but she was in denial of her mental illness/ delusional disorder. She was open to therapy but refused medications and did not agree with her diagnosis. We didn’t do anything wrong.”
Every single one of these people may as well have physically and violently raped me. I have never in my life experienced the extreme terror, anxiety, depression, suicidal thoughts, and PTSD this crime has caused me. Every single one of these people are guilty of menticide and conspiracy to murder. They are not innocent, they were not “doing the right thing”, they were not just “doing their jobs”/ business as usual. Every single one of these people was fully aware of the destruction they were causing. It’s not the first time they’ve done it and it won’t be the last. The fact that they are able to repeatedly hide these heinous crimes from the courts does not make them innocent. But no crime is perfect. The fact is I am still standing, I will never do anything violent, and I will work to expose these murderers until well after I am 6 feet under. F*CK each and every single one of you 🙂
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San Diego Mayor Bob Filner recently resigned due to a sudden onslaught of allegations of sexual harassment. He resigned under extreme conditions of extra judicial justice and not because any of the accusations were actually verified. He referred to these people as a lynch mob which is correct. Under the Odrama administration, social justice comes from the top down and the bottom up without a lick of proof, just a lot of fingers pointing. Fast and Furious is not just an arms scandal but the entire theme for Odrama’s presidency. At a city council meeting one week before he resigned, Mayor Filner spoke in his own defense and made a statement that sums up targeting so well. “I provided them with the ammunition, they aimed the gun and pulled the trigger.” Filner admitted to having boundary issues with women and was open to treatment, but due process seemed out of the question. In contrast, in response to a question about Filner being framed by local developers for political reasons, a commentator on NPR later said “Well, we provided the kindling, Filner threw the gasoline on it and lit the match.” I am sure this is exactly how the lynch mob sees it, which just shows how psychopathic they are.
When my stalking went overt last summer, local law enforcement had every intention of murdering me. Either by suiciding me or homicide by law enforcement. The “strategy of tension” the gang stalkers created was phenomenal. I could tell the perps were ready for a big scene that would include violence everywhere I went. Their blood thirst was palpable.
In the moments I sat at my cubicle in my office on 6/28/12 before 2 police officers arrived I remember suddenly feeling very unsafe. At this point I was about 2 weeks into the overt stalking and had already experienced days of terrorism and harassment. The mobbing was full force at work complete with flooding my office with non-employees (posing as employees) and look alikes impersonating administrators. I calmly asked to speak to my boss and sat and waited. I did not know they had called the police. But in the moments before they arrived a busied hush came over the office and I remember feeling a distinct fear for my physical safety. That is because those officers were waiting for any excuse to pull out a gun and kill me. They were waiting for me to lunge at one of my coworkers, delirious with terror and confusion. Those coworkers thought they were about to witness a murder.
In the 1-2 months leading up to the overt gang stalking I noticed both my downstairs neighbors installing black metal security gates over their front doors. They both put them up within a month of each other. I have lived here 11 years and they never had these gates before but I shrugged it off. I now realize they were girding themselves for violence. There was also a huge criminal element in the neighborhood with all the human slime that moved in to harass me. But these people were taking security measures in case I panicked and got violent, they had every expectation of this from the level of harassment and provocation they were giving me. One of them had her college aged son stay with her for a few weeks in the beginning because she was so scared.
I also remember going to the beach around this time. Yes I went surfing in the midst of this as a giant “fuck you” to these people. I would go to Swami’s which is a local beach that is known world wide for its break. Every time I approached I would notice an exodus of what looked like regular surfers, grown men. Rushing away, running up the stairs, piling their gear into their cars. Could not get away fast enough. These guys knew exactly what was going on and did not want to be a part of it. Did not want to witness or be associated with a murder by law enforcement. You see, this beach has a web cam that can be seen all over the world.
This is how they get an innocent person killed. A stable, independent person with no criminal record, no psychiatric or medical problems; a law-abiding, gainfully employed, tax paying citizen. I have never had a single legal, criminal, or personal issue with any member of law enforcement, anywhere, ever. Look around you, look at the myriad of stories you are seeing in the media now about innocent people suddenly committing acts of violence, barricading themselves in their homes until they are killed by SWAT teams. This is everywhere. These people are doing this because they are being gang stalked. I will never hurt my self or anyone else physically.
When you drive loud vehicles up and down my street and driveway, that is violence. When you are loud and curse and yell at each other in public, that is violence. When you fly choppers low over me everywhere I go, that is violence. When you sexually harass me in public, that is violence. When you are stalked by civilians and first responders, that is violence. When you stalk me en masse and sensitize me to physical stimuli that induces feelings of paranoia everywhere I go, whether it’s from a perp or not, that’s violence. When you destroy my trust in everyone and everything, that is violence. When you deny me from any possible means of legal/social/emotional support or validation of victimization, that is violence. When you mob me at work, that is violence. When law enforcement shows up at your job, tackles you and handcuffs you without witnessing anything or questioning you, that is violence. When you are taunted, mimicked, ridiculed, mobbed, bullied, that is violence. When you viciously alienate, humiliate, isolate, and degrade me that is violence. When you are forcefully separated from your friends and family, that is violence. When you steal and vandalize my property, that is violence. When you illegally enter my home, auto, and storage unit, that is violence. When you falsely imprison me, that is violence. When you commit fraud, that is violence. When you commit menticide with surreal street theater and fake mental illness diagnoses, that is violence. When you invade my physical and mental privacy that is violence. When you sexually assault me in my sleep that is violence. When you cause bodily pain with DEW that is violence. When you are intentionally made to feel fear and unpredictability all the time, that is violence. When you conspire with others to make every effort to destroy a person’s life that is violence. And when someone besides me responds with violence to these acts, after being turned down for help everywhere they asked, in my opinion they are completely justified.
**I am beginning to wonder if my city has a long standing history of hate due to racism. If so, adding more categories of people as targets for OGS/EH was probably just a lateral move. I am noticing a current trend in targeting people who are considered “pious” and trustworthy, or in other words, “too normal”.
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“Gang stalking groups” have a substantially identical modus operandi to the FBI’s Special Surveillance Groups or “SSG’s”. These SSG’s were developed in the 1970’s to combat Soviet espionage. Today, these tactics have been taught to criminals, through FBI channels, for domestic COINTELPRO operations against American citizens.
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In your head, in your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie,
Hey, hey, hey. What’s in your head,
In your head,
Zombie, zombie, zombie? – The Cranberries
Wow, I said it, how liberating. I feel like I am maturing and regressing at the exact same time. I also can’t believe I am having to write a post about something so incredibly infantile.
Perps want targets to feel deeply ashamed and disgusted by themselves. If you have a nasty habit and they mimic it back to you everywhere you go, you have no one to blame but yourself, right? Because you are the one who does this nasty thing in private. And if you didn’t do this nasty thing they wouldn’t be mimicking back to you in the first place. So we have shame, anger, guilt, disgust, humiliation, degradation, alienation, isolation, and self-loathing all packed into one punch. It’s not a joke, this same exact tactic was used by a foreign country to effectively break down American POW’s.
When a target commits a violent act and no one ever finds out why they did it, it is because they are too ashamed to say why. Ashamed of themselves and their own compulsive habits. Ashamed that they could become violent over such infantile behavior. Ashamed that their every thought, motivation, and flaw has been laid out on display for thousands of perps. If more targets would come out in the open with what their perps are really doing to them, the severe degree of cruelty and torture perps inflict would be better exposed.
But it is tough. The things perps mimic/repeat can be deeply embarrassing to TI’s and that is why perps do it. And to try to relate these things to other people is even more humiliating, and the perps know this. But TI’s have to bite the bullet and push through it. It is severe psychological abuse and needs to be exposed.
These are some things my perps mimic constantly that are deeply humiliating to me:
I pick my nose and eat it.
I fart a lot and loudly.
I rub lotion onto my breasts and thighs after I shower.
When I masturbate, I sometimes touch my breasts and jiggle them up and down.
I snack constantly at home. I overeat and I inhale my food. I rarely use a napkin.
I flush the toilet right before I urinate to hide the sound from my neighbors.
I sometimes get urine on the floor/bathroom rug because of this, causing an odor.
I don’t flush the toilet again after I go so the bowl often has paper/ urine left in it.
I read while I am on the toilet. I look at the Victoria’s Secret Catalog a lot.
When they were causing me to have severe constipation last spring, I would sometimes inspect my stools with a Q-tip.
At home, when the weather is warm, I wear white “wife beater” tank tops with no bra.
I frequently crack the knuckles in my hands.
I frequently pick at skin on the sides of my face, forehead, and upper back/shoulders.
I have hair around my nipples.
When my hair is dirty my scalp itches, when I scratch it I get dandruff under my fingernails. I have to scrape it out with another nail.
I’m not a good housekeeper.
I wear a pair of red fleece Christmas themed pajama pants throughout the year when I am cold.
I frequently spray saliva when I talk.
I save empty cardboard boxes in my storage unit.
I don’t always use the most appropriate word to describe something.
I lost so much weight from stress when my stalking went overt, my bras no longer fit and the straps kept falling down. Women would mimick me pulling up my bra straps. One elderly woman even did it at a traffic light. She was so theatrical about it she reminded me of a mime.
In addition to the above, they also have knowledge of when I have my periods and when I shave my genital area. They have made comments/innuendo about it in therapy and during classes.
Thousands of perps already know this information about me because I have been under illegal surveillance inside my home 24/7/365. Scrutinized to the extreme where “nothing is unimportant”. These behaviors have been mimicked repeatedly back to me physically, verbally, and non-verbally non-stop over the past 11 months by men, women, and children. By cops, attorneys, therapists, neighbors, city officials/employees, perps in group therapy, perps posing as TI’s, coworkers, at Church, at yoga, at traffic court, at City Council meetings, at the beach, at the market, at salons, at the vet, at restaurants, in classes, at bars, online, on the phone, in traffic, by complete strangers on the streets. It is the perps’ way of making the target feel freshly raped and assaulted each and every day, all day.
I am not proud of these habits, some of them are compulsive and I have no control over them. They are disgusting to me too and I still can’t believe that everywhere I go right now people are acting them out in front of me. When a target reveals these things they take the risk of feeling even more vulnerable and exposed, when we are already so raw from abuse. But I think it’s important that we reveal all the ugliness and bring it out into the light. None of these things I do are illegal or deviant, but they are socially unacceptable. That’s why they occur at home, not in public. I know I am not the only one who does these things, but our perception becomes extremely distorted as they are magnified and amplified by the perps. Up until last summer, I thought I was doing these things in the privacy of my own home. Before I found out I actually had an audience and my home was now a “fishbowl”.
So judge away, everyone. I may be a sweat hog but at least I am a nice/attractive one, who is really a good person. At least I’m not a toxic fucking mess and a zombie jihadist Nazi serial killer imbecile/sadistic psychopath, orgasming with a red white and blue DHS dildo up my ass.